Today's one of those days where I have a bazillion and two thoughts and they have no order whatsoever, but I want to put the poetry to paper.
1. I appreciate and adore Valerie Mizer muchisimo.
2. I wish someone would unpack and clean my apartment for me.
3. I need someone to come see Mamma Mia with me!
4. I wanna go on a date.
5. I want to go on a mission more than that.
6. I really miss him more than I ever thought I would or could. And I super miss the "other" him. And the other one too. A lot. Valerie is probably the only person who would understand who each "him" is.
7. I had a good day today :). I got paid, work seemed less than pointless, and I had a day where I felt like I'm worth something. I don't need people to fawn over me and tell me I'm great, but a little flirting once in a while really gives my confidence a boost. I don't feel invisible anymore.
8. I wish i had milk. It's really hard for me to sleep without milk.
9. I went bananas when I saw Jay Mattioli on America's Got Talent because he used to come to Siena all the time and he and I chatted:)
10. Did I mention I really miss him? Do you ever not really understand how much you're connected to a person until they are gone? How much you value the role they play in your life, until you can't hug him or talk to him anymore? It's not a love thing. Not in the way you think. I love him (all of the "hims"), but in the way that means that I loved the dynamic between us. I think he gets me, and I get him. And I miss all of the little things.
11. My family is coming! Yay! Is it bad that the one I want to see the most is the 2 year old?
12. Mission prep class = awesomeness.
13. Mission paperwork and fighting the government = NOT awesomeness
14. I never want to work for Squire Sanders for real. Its a GREAT opportunity, and they are great people at a great firm. But its not a fit for me.
15. $300 for a tiny scratch? COME ONNNNNNNN
16. I'd like to have more than just a good day once. Maybe a whole week. A Month?!?!? I feel like this is always short-lived....
But I shall enjoy it while it lasts!
Keep on keepin' on,
Bloggerama
