Today was a good day. I don't know that anything super special happened. But I did witness one of the most amazing and powerful baptisms. I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU SACHI!!!!
And I got to see some old missionary pals. Fun stuff. But I do think I learned about myself tonight.
1. I DO matter. I may not matter to everyone, or matter much to anyone. But I realized tonight that God does use me as a tool to say and do things to further His work. Maybe someday I'll be important to many. But today, for the first time in a while, I felt and understood that nothing would be the same without me. Be that it would be better, or worse, or just different. But I have an impact on the world. That's a big step for me. I have felt for quite some time that I could be removed from the equation and no one would notice. But alas, that is not the case!
2. I'm a jealous person. More on that later.
3. I like this effort to be less sensitive. I mean, I love my sensitivity. I think it makes me caring and keeps me honest. But I used to take everything personally. And cry about everything. But lately I have really been trying to just let things go. And it makes life much more enjoyable. When I choose not to dwell on things that normally would upset me, or I take the time to understand and validate why I feel the way I do, I understand myself better. And when I understand myself better, I love myself better. And believe it or not, I can love God better when I love myself better. So a big plus.
4. I read and understand behavior and motives very well. And this leads to me being irritated. but I have to learn how to handle that like I have learned in number 3. Also, its only on my mind because of number 2.
Love always,
Blogeramma
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