Should I give up?

Or should I just keep chasing pavements, even if they lead NOWHERE? Or would it be a waste, even if knew my place? Should I leave them there?

1. Saturday was one of the best days EVER. It was like missionary oasis. If you know me, you know that I get attached and many of them are my friends. I got to see some missionaries that gave talks. One missionary and I almost hugged, but fear not....no contact was made. It was super awesome.

2. And then today super sucked.
A. Sucky thing "A": I don't understand why this kid is giving me the cold shoulder. I almost don't care anymore. I'm not trying to marry him, or even date him. But I DO think he's one of the most awesome people on the planet and I thought he'd be a good friend. But alas, it appears that he could care less. And as a result, I guess I could care less too. Shame.

B. Sucky thing "B" : I don't understand how you can continue to act like nothing happened, like you didn't wrong me, like you don't owe me, and like its a non-issue. It IS an issue, and you've don't nothing, and I mean NOTHING to try to make it right. Stop changing the subject, or ignoring me when I bring it up.

C. Sucky thinkg "C": I feel like the people I can really trust ( eh, give or a take a couple) are on missions or live far away. The only people that have shown that they can be good friends. And maybe that's only BECAUSE they are on missions. In any event, it sucks.

D. Sucky thing "D" : You, sir, are the most inconsistent friend I know. One day you'd like to be here, talking to me, hanging out and being "intellectually and spiritually stimulating." But at other times I feel like you don't care that I exist. As long as something better is around, you can't be bothered. And sometimes you're just rude.

E. Sucky thing "E" : I can't stand how people find someone, get in a new relationship, and then as a result become another person and mentally check out. I don't think a person should CHANGE you, he/she should COMPLETE you. so if you are someone new just because you're in a relationship, then you haven't learned enough about yourself from the beginning.

On the plus side of things, sometimes you find the best treats in the most unexpected places:) Thank you ladies, for understanding that I don't need a "perfect" friend, but just a person who's being the best friend that they can be.

And no matter what, I still think something is near for me. My dream and fantasy is close, and I'm learning and loving every minute of it.