Is it A-D-D if i just want L-O-V-E?

I'm supposed to study. That's what I know. But I'm distracted, hopelessly. Consistently. Distracted.

Every time I start to do something, start to progress, or sit somewhere, I'm hopelessly distracted by my future. I am in a permanent state of daydreaming.

I imagine situations I want to be in. I think about people I want to be with, go places and see things and experience things with. I think about my career and making a difference. I think about someone telling me that I've changed their life.

I think about feeling differently about myself. I think about being the center of attention. I think about being the type of person that catches everyone's eye.

I think about being on TV. About creating tv. Running Tv.

I think about my children. My husband. My in-laws.

I dream about being a singer. About being an actress. About living in front of a camera, or on a stage.

I think about what I would choose for my life and for the people around me, if i could change things in just 1 word.

I think about having all of the answers. About being able to say things to comfort those people who need words of wisdom from me.

I dream about having a best friend. Who needs me. and turns to me for advice. And is always there, no matter what. And comes to me in the good times and bad times. I don't remember the last time I had a best friend. Long ago.

And I think about paradise. I think about my Heavenly Father, and what it must be like to be in His presence. I dream about the day I will see him, see his face. I dream about the Celestial kingdom and everything that will happen there. I think about my family: that will be with me, and the family that won't be. I wonder how those who are not with me will feel, in the kingdoms where they end up.

I'm a hopeless dreamer, but that's because I dream about true love. Not just in the romantic sense, but being truly in love with myself, my life, my job, my place...everything. I'm distracted because I love to love, everything.


Sincerely,

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